Only 136 more!

Ever since Lucas and Marisa were born, I have been wishing them older ... to an easier stage ... to a more enjoyable stage ... wondering when "time is going to start going by so fast" as everyone says. I get so caught up in managing life that I forget to LET myself stop and enjoy them. This month I started something concrete that I hope will help me smile more and scream less. I found this tiny watering can (because we are the gardeners that 'water' our children - with God's help of course), and in it I put 136 tiny pinto beans. There are only 136 months left before Lucas graduates from high school and leaves for college. (Pinto beans - because that's what I feed my puerto rican family every Friday night.) When I put the pinto beans in the watering can and saw that it only covered half of the tiny watering can, it made me literally nauseous. The first day of every month I will take one bean out and hopefully this will remind me that my time with them is short. Love them, love them, love them.